i am glass more than some

i don't think i like christmas that much at all.
nope, i pretty much hate it.
i think it puts me in a bad mood.
oh well. i was in a bad mood for most of today.
unfortunate.

it has this whole feeling of such obligation to be grateful and happy with the people around you, i almost want to defy the idea of it all and just be a complete bitch to all i see.
i mean, sorry.

i feel like i've been taking soooo many showers over the break, but it's just cause i don't have the same schedule i do during school. that, being without my schedule, throws me off a tidge.

i wish that i could appreciate the things that other people do.
i wish i had a more fluid slash satisfying outlet for my frustration with everything.
i hate sounding cliche.
i wish i had more to talk about than me.

i'm going to ghana over the summer with my dad. i have all these ideas about it's gonna be, but i know that it's gonna be like nothing i could have imagined.
recently, i think i've been doing less of the usual pre-activity fanasising.
it makes me a little sad when i realize how things change.